Friday, December 28, 2018

Currently December 2018 [Twelve Twenty Eight Eighteen]

EXCITED to see Lady Gaga's opening night for her Las Vegas residency at The Park MGM in the Park Theater!! I have always loved her and have seen her a few times before, so I'm excited to see what her and her team put together for her residency.

READING blogs and Girl, Wash Your Face. I started this book while we were in Mexico and now that we are home, I am still trying to get through it. Have you read it? Do you like it?

WRITING/CREATING blog posts. Trying to anyways. Once the new year comes around, my creative juices start flowing and I want to blog again more regularly. I'm also going through pictures from 2018 and trying to get organized.

LOVING having Green Grandma here. She'll be here visiting us for 2 weeks.

WONDERING what 2019 has in store for our little family. 

EATING what Green Grandma made for Christmas dinner...ham, au grautin potatoes, sweet potatoes, corn, beans and bread. All the leftovers of a delicious Christmas dinner.

DRINKING water. I've been trying to get more water in lately.

CRAVING chocolate. That's about the only thing I ever really crave.


WATCHING a lot of the cooking channel. With Grandma here, that's what she likes to watch. We also have plans to go see the new Mary Poppins movie while she is here, too. I'm also debating on whether or not I want to watch Bird Box on Netflix. Have you seen it? Thoughts?

LISTENING TO all Lady Gaga! We're going to the opening night of her residency here in Las Vegas. So excited!!!

WEARING all the VGK apparel.

LOOKING FORWARD TO Lady Gaga tonight. Can you tell I'm excited?

FEELING inspired. The new year has a way of lighting a fire under my ass. I like to set new goals and even if I don't acheive them all or all the time, it's the effort that counts right? Anyone else?

WEATHER is cooler here.

WANTING to move. We are slowly growing out of our current house and getting antsy.

NEEDING to sit down with someone regarding buying a house. We are first time home buyers, but owning a house literally scares the shit outta me.

THINKING ABOUT the new year, a possible house, what 2019 will bring to the D Fam.

ENJOYING time with Grandma and the holiday season.

THANKFUL FOR my Husband who works every day for our family and is my rock.

DREAMING about a new house.

CLICKING ON Pinterest to look at nail color combos. I'm loving my nails right now.

OBSESSING at looking online at houses.

WISHING we could move right now, but we know there is a whole process we need to go through.

TRYING to save up money for our down payment. Being an adult is rough.

Happy Friday friends! Hope y'all have a great weekend!

Friday, November 30, 2018

Coffee Conversations {11.30.2018}

Happy Friday! Just wanted to check in. It's been a full week month over here, so I'm looking forward to the weekend. And although it won't be a chill weekend, it will be fun nevertheless. We have concerts both Saturday night and Sunday night.

I can hardly believe that Christmas is right around the corner already. I feel like 2018 has gone by so dang fast.

I have been so behind on my television shows, so it was so nice over the long Thanksgiving weekend to get caught up on a few of my favorites:

Blindspot - I had stopped watching it halfway through last season, so I officially finished the last half of last season and the first half of this season so far.

Chicago One - On Wednesday nights is the 3 hour movie (not really, but 3 hours is a lot) of Chicago Med, Chicago Fire and Chicago PD. I am all caught up on these shows, too.

I was sick with a sinus infection over Thanksgiving, which wasn't fun, but it was the perfect excuse to watch lots of TV.

We're going on another broadcast work trip in a couple weeks. This time we are headed to Mexico. We've been to Jamaica twice now, so it will be fun to switch it up. Neither Wayne nor I have been to Mexico, so we are really looking forward to getting away for a few days in the midst of the busyness.

My sister is coming next Saturday to stay with the kids while we are gone. I'm looking forward to having her here and I know the kids are so excited.

Griffin is just about completely potty-trained. It all happened within the last few weeks. His teachers at his school really worked with him during the day as they are with him most of the time, but it has really stuck now, so we are hopeful it will continue. He will still be wearing a diaper at night for quite awhile, but not having to worry about diapers during the day is AWESOME!!!!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

Thursday, November 8, 2018


To all my Route 91 family I am with you today and everyday and just know that I love you and am here for you if you need anything.

Outsiders don't understand that when shootings continue to happen over and over again it brings the PTSD back in full force. It brings up feelings and emotions we thought we had dealt with. Outsiders don't realize that just because it's been a year +, that we should be fine and all better and be able to move on. They just don't understand or get it.

We not only cope with what we went through on a daily basis, but on days like this, when another mass shooting happens, and the following days of seeing it on the news over and over again it's hard. Really hard. Physically, mentally and emotionally it's draining. It doesn't matter if it happens in a school or a church/synagogue or a bar. To hear the same things over and over again...thoughts and prayers....

Yes, I am grateful to wake-up everyday, but that doesn't take away the feelings and emotions. Feeling like no one in the real world actually cares. It's becoming a weekly occurrence and everyone is just constantly looking the other way. Which some people can do if they have never been through something like that before, but as survivors we can't look the other way. It consumes us over and over again. It's like a bad movie on repeat that we can't escape.

I am fortunate to have a great support system in my Husband, my kids and my friends. Not everyone has that. So please if you see someone stuggling, try and be that support system for them.

Friday, October 5, 2018

Body Booster - Part 1

So almost three years to the day (10/7/2015) Wayne had his gastric sleeve surgery. You can read all about that HERE. That procedure was the best decision he ever made for himself and even though it was a difficult road the following months after, it truly changed who he was for the better. I will forever be grateful for Dr. Tom and his team.

Now, today he is getting a less invasive procedure done at Belle Medical called HD Body Sculpting. He is getting his upper abdomen, lower abdomen and love handles done. With the 200 lbs he's lost since the surgery there were still a few problem areas that he wanted to take care of. Well, that's where Belle Medical steps in to help.

This is what he shared on his FB about it. We will be documenting his surgery, recovery and the following weeks and months as the sculpting process continues to work it's magic. He has been very open about all his struggles with weight loss and confidence even before the gastric sleeve surgery and will continue to be open about this, too. He truly feels that if he can help even one person with whatever they are going through or feeling by sharing his story, then it is all worth the vulnerability that can be so scary.

Now, let me just tell you that we have been together for 15+ years and I have loved him from the moment we met and knew shortly after we started officially dating that we were meant for each other.

I have loved him at his heaviest (440+ lbs) and supported him from the get go of whatever he needed to do to feel better about himself and gain that inner self-confidence that he felt he was missing. This whole journey has been about him and being THE BEST person he can be not only for himself, but for his family.

If you have ever met him, then you know he exudes confidence, but that doesn't mean that inside he is confident. There's a difference between the two and you would never know that about him. He still sees that 440+ lb guy in the mirror and struggles with that daily. It's hard to get out of that mindset when you were in it for so long. I am confident that this procedure will help him with the confidence he needs to feel the best for himself.

I have always supported him in whatever he has wanted to do, because I know that he supports me now in whatever I do and that he would support me in anything that I would want to do in the future.

Bottom line is: I am his biggest cheerleader.

So stay tuned for more updates on his procedure in the following days, weeks and months.

Monday, October 1, 2018


This week has been hard. Like really hard. Like brain exploding one minute and then heart exploding the next. My eyes are tired from all the tears, but my hurt is full from all the love.

First off, we had to put our little Bella down last Sunday. She was almost 12 and as much as we hated doing it, it was time. She became blind about 4+ years ago and had gone downhill since then. She would only sporadically eat her food for the past few weeks, so we knew the time was getting closer.  Hailey of course was a wreck which made it 10x worse. But nevertheless, we rallied together and got through it as a family.

The vet called me on Friday morning saying that her remains, etc. were ready for pick-up. Wayne and Griff picked up her ashes Sunday morning and Griff was so cute about it. He wanted to hold her on the way home. Needless to say this didn't help with our emotions going into the month of October.

Today is October 1st. If you are new around here, please read HERE and HERE.

It’s been 365 days and there isn't one day that goes by that I don't think about that night and how differently things could have turned out. I wanna say that I'm doing well, but I guess it just depends on the day and time. It depends on where I am or what I'm doing or who I'm with. There are a lot of different factors that determine my mood and/or level of anxiety at any given time and I know that my fellow survivor family can relate.

For me it's not all about October 1st. For me it's more about October 2nd and everyday after. It's about continuing to process what we went through not only that night, but as the sun rose, as the city started moving and as we started healing as a community. It's not just about what we saw, what we heard, what we witnessed. It's about the healing I have done since that day, but also the healing that I have yet to do. It's about my everyday since that day.

It's about my amazing support system in my Husband and children. They are my motivation to keep going and be the best person, Wife and Mother I can be. They are my entire world and I try and show them that everyday. My one thought and fear as I was running for my life that night was that I just hoped that they knew how much I loved them. That's all I for Wayne, Hailey and Griffin to know that I love them with all my heart.

It's about all the amazing people I have met since then. It's about all the amazing friends I now have since that night. It's about the relationships and the connections I have with my people now. That is my silver lining in all of this

It's about my two friends that were with me from Minnesota that weekend. I admit that I not only have #survivorsguilt, but guilt knowing that they wouldn't have been there if it wasn't for coming to visit me in Las Vegas for that weekend and that country music festival. To Samantha and Katie. I am so thankful that we made it out of there alive. I don't want to imagine it any other way. I love you both so much!

For me it's about the VGK organization and the friends that have come out of our #goknightsgo family. They will never truly know how they have helped this community and me and my family especially.

It's about how my city reacted and still reacts. For me it's about all the positive things that have come out of that very dark time and even though it sucks that it happened, I am thankful that I am still here to live everyday with the people I love.

A year ago we were #VegasStrong and now on October 1, 2018 we are #VegasStronger.

Friday, June 8, 2018

VGK: Forever and Always

I’ve been super emotional the last few days and especially today. Not because we didn’t win the Stanley Cup, but what we all have experienced the last 8+ months and woke up to this morning was much more than anything a Stanley Cup could ever give us. The way everyone has opened their hearts to this VGK Family is like no other. Every time I think I am ok, I go online and read what someone wrote, or I watch a video of Fluery apologizing or Tuch crying because he’s so emotional and just can’t keep it in. 

Or I read things like this:

And I lose it all over again.

Let me repeat that I am not emotional because we didn’t win last night. I am happy and at peace and even though I think some Capitals players are dirty, they ultimately played a better game. I am not going to say they were the better team, but they played better than we did. For us, this is so much more than just hockey. This is something bigger than the game itself. 

I am emotional as to what this team has not only given this city and their fans this season, but also my little family. The support and love from everyone has been outstanding. The friendships developed and the messages received whether in person or through social media giving my Husband a compliment or thanking me for sharing him with everyone (haha) or saying how adorable our kids are (aka Gameday Griff) are unbelievable and humbling.  Also, I want to thank you for helping me heal. Thank you for reaching out and chatting or saying Hi at games. Thank you for taking my mind away even for a minute from any dark space. Thank you for the hugs and high fives. Thank you for embracing us. Thank you for being there and being you.

 The D Fam will always be Minnesota WILD fans and hold a special place in our heart for that team because that is where Wayne and I grew up, but Las Vegas is our home now and the Vegas Golden Knights are OUR team. And I’m not talking about just the players, but everyone who had anything to do with the team from the coaches to behind the scenes and especially the fans and our city. 


The way our city embraced this team and rallied together and will continue to rally together for seasons and years to come.

We won a lot more this season than a Stanley Cup that's for sure and for that I
thank you friends from the bottom of my heart.

#vgk #alwaysandforever #vegasstrong #vegasborn

Friday, June 1, 2018

NHL NOW with Big D


So this happened yesterday afternoon. My Husband was asked by the show NHL NOW to be on their afternoon broadcast before game 2. They have been broadcasting right outside the arena all weekend since before game one.

PROUD doesn't even begin to describe my feelings!! He did such a good job!

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

What's Up Wednesday [Five Thirty Eighteen]

What we are eating this week month...



What I'm reminiscing about...

Date night

Country in the Park

Locash and Billy Currington
What I'm loving...

My Young Living Essential Oils

What we've been up to...

We have been trying to enjoy this view as much as possible....

What I'm dreading...

I'm not really dreading anything. I'm looking forward to the summer with the family!

What I'm working on...

This blog and getting caught up on pictures. I'm also getting more acquainted with Young Living.

What I'm excited about...

June hopefully brings a Stanely Cup to Vegas, more Aces games, family visiting from Minnesota, Hailey turning 7 (even though I'm not really excited about that) and another family trip to DISNEYLAND!!!

What I'm watching/reading...

What I'm listening to...

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What I'm wearing...

It's getting warmer and warmer in Vegas, so dresses, capris and tanks to work and shorts and tanks and swimsuits on the weekends.

What I'm doing this weekend...

Friday night is 95.5 The Bull's concert featuring Dylan Scott at Red Rocks Lounge. We have a lot of friends going, so I'm really looking forward to a night out.

Saturday is game 3 of the Stanley Cup Final, so Wayne will be working the watch party.

Sunday is family day, which means we will most likely grill and have some pool time!!

What I'm looking forward to next month...

I hope the month of June brings a Stanley Cup to Vegas. I also want to explore more and more with my essential oils.

What else is new...Wayne started with the Las Vegas Aces over this past weekend. We are #AllIn

Friday, May 25, 2018

Friday Favorites [Five Twenty-Five Eighteen]

Happy Friday friends. Oh what a busy time in the D House.  I plan on doing more of a life update next week, but just know that (1) the Las Vegas Aces WNBA team's first home game is this Sunday and Wayne is the "Fan Correspondent" for them so he will be doing all the home games just like he does the VGK games (2) the Vegas Golden Knights are going to the Stanley Cup which starts on Monday and runs for the next 3 weeks, and (3) our not so little girl, Hailey finished her last day of 1st grade yesterday, which officially makes her a 2nd grader! Wah!! Where does the time go?!

Anyways, I just wanted to share a few things I am loving lately. I got these Tory Burch sandals a few weeks ago. They were on major sale, so that is the only reason why I got them. They are a major splurge, but I love them so much! #boujee

I am loving these cookies...Nutter Butter Peanut Pattie. #addicting
I got this letter board from Target a few months back (It's black and gold, what can I say). I'm trying to figure out what I should put on it for this next and final round against the Washington Capitals. #nocapsno

Anyways, Happy Friday. I hope y'all have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend. I am very much looking forward to my 3 day weekend. It will be spent by the pool, getting some organization done around the house, watching sports of course and eating some great food!!!!

Thursday, May 3, 2018

NHL: Game Changers - "Knight Fever"

If you have 22 minutes (it's a quick watch), please take the time to watch this episode that NBC Sports did on the Vegas Golden Knights. My hubby is in it, but more importantly it shows why this team is so special and is so important to not only me and my family, but also our city.

We cherish all our new friends that we have made since September through being involved with the Vegas Golden Knights and our love for hockey.

Let me also explain that both me and my Husband grew up in Minnesota. The state of ice hockey. Mighty Ducks anyone? He was somewhat a fan of the North Stars before they left. Then in came the Wild years later. Both of us didn't grow up watching or loving professional hockey the way we were brought up loving professional football (Go Vikes) or even professional baseball for him (Go Twins). So even though we had a hockey team and of course rooted for them and went to an occasional game here or there, we were never really diehard WILD fans. I didn't even really like watching hockey on TV to be honest.

But then a few things happened last fall and things changed. Does that make me a band-wagoner? Maybe. Do I care? Nope. Not one bit.

A few points:

1. My Hubby started working with the team as the in arena game host. That in itself was a direct link to the team and fans. I knew at that point I would be immersed into the world, but I just didn't know then what I do now;

2. The events of 1 October happened and the way the whole team, organization and really the NHL in general handled everything and paid tribute to everyone was incredible. To the opening day ceremonies around the league and our first home game on October 10, 2018. Everything was so special and emotional and healing all at the same time; and, last but certainly not least,

3. We started to and continue to feel the sense of community within the fan base. We have met such awesome people and made such great connections and friends through this team and organization that it amplifies it even more. I think with only living in Vegas for about 3 years and not having many friends here, this team and the VGK community came around for our little family at just the perfect time.

So yes, through all of this I have really loved going to games and even watching them on TV. If you would have told me 5 years ago I would be this big of a hockey fan as I am today, I would have said no way, but like I explained above, things changed and I will forever be a Vegas Golden Knights fan.

Thursday, March 8, 2018

Love > Hate

I've been slowly putting together this post over the last few weeks partly because I didn't know 100% on what I wanted to all put into it because to me there is just so much I could say, but mostly because I just haven't had time. Between being slammed at work (read: our receptionist/legal secretary walked out) all the home VGK games which kept Wayne busy and me being a single parent most nights, putting our beloved 11 year old cocker spaniel, Puckett, down after him being sick for 3 weeks, Disneyland with the family and just life in general.

I just haven't had much time for this little space as I had hoped for this year so far.

But back to the topic of this post because I am still seeing various things in which I want to touch and write about.

I've seen a lot of various responses from people over the last few weeks when someone, like me, brings up even the topic of gun reform and the hope of one day seeing some sort of gun reform talk be STARTED. Some sort of change. I am not naive to the fact that it's not going to happen overnight and that it will not solve or fix all the gun problems or violence in this country. There are way too many issues for that.

But when I say Nevada has little to no gun law. That scares me. When I know there is no state to state gun law. That scares me. When you can buy guns at a gun show or online and there is no regulation or registration for that.

And I am not saying I am the most knowledgeable about guns or laws, but that shouldn't matter if you are or not. You should still want gun regulation.

Instead I hear:

"Let's just love one another."

"If people were more accepting of other's, than things like this wouldn't happen."

"Gun reform isn't going to change anything."

"Guns are not the problem, _________ is." Insert another excuse.

Now let me preface this with saying, I agree. In a perfect world we would all love each other and be more accepting of others, there would also be no poor people, no hungry people, no homeless, everyone would be able to be their authentic selves without getting ridiculed for it. The list goes on and on.

But to me the one constant from these people that I keep hearing these GOD DAMN excuses from are people who voted for Trump and support someone who is the epitome of hate and nonacceptance. Someone whose main goal is to stir the pot and make sure it's being stirred on a daily basis.

Some of these people also support a Vice President who believes that "conversion therapy" ACTUALLY works. Really? We're back to that?

I don't like to lump all Conservatives into one basket. Just like I don't like it when someone lumps all Democrats into one basket.

But I cannot support a political party who doesn't support the LGBTQ community. A political party who supports white supremacist groups. Who still use words like fa**ot and ni**er. To me THOSE things are what are driving this country into the ground. In no way shape or form is that "Making America Great Again."

How can you preach all those inclusive things when the very people you are supporting are the exact opposite of love and acceptance?

Don't tell me that if the shooter wasn't white, then the excuses would be ISIS or religion or whatever else you can pin it on. It's always an excuse.

Preaching love and acceptance, but then not really supporting it in the real world or calling someone out on their bullshit when using derogatory words like that because it's all just in fun. I have people in my own family that still use those words and have this way of thinking. Don't think that they don't know how I feel about it. They do.

Talking about humanization and how people relate to each other, but then not being accepting of someone for who they really are and supporting an agenda that tears people down instead of lifting people up.

I say you look in the mirror. What are you doing to help with that?

Thursday, February 15, 2018

I'd Be Lying

I'd be lying if I didn't say that the mass school shooting this week didn't affect me differently than it ever has before. I first got the alert on my phone through FB as some of the news stations in town were picking it up. I login to FB and pull it up on my work computer. I watch the news footage as they don't have the shooter apprehended yet. He was still "at large." My stomach dropped.

It comes out that it is a student, later to be found out he was an ex-student. Shortly thereafter he was taken into custody in a nearby neighborhood. Not even on campus anymore.

As they are showing various footage of the hospitals and outside the school campus, the news stations start interviewing the kids as they are coming out and parents as they are picking up their children after this horrible event.

As a parent I can't even imagine what was going through their minds. Some of them getting texts from their children while at work saying "the school is on lockdown, but I am safe."

Followed by "I'm scared, Mom." or "I love you, Dad."

I hope I never receive a text like that from either of my kids (or anyone I know for that matter). My wish would be that no parent ever has to receive some sort of text like that. I know my Husband went through some version of this with me on October 1st. He also prays that no one has to go through what he went in his position of having a loved one on the other side of this.

The scenes that some of these kids...just KIDS...were describing were the same types of scenes for me at Route 91. Running past bodies, not really knowing if they were dead or alive. So much blood. The sound of gunfire, crying, screaming and yelling. The mixed feelings of being scared and hopeless and then total confusion and shock of what you have just witnessed and went through.

My heart aches for these children and adults alike that had to experience what I experienced. For those people that have experienced it in the past and for those that will experience it in the future because as sad is it is, it will happen again. I never would wish anything like this on anyone.

Not only is it a mass shooting, that in and of itself is scary and heart wrenching, but then on top of that to be at a school.

A parent sent their child off to school that day not knowing that they would never see them again.

A spouse sent their significant other off to work that day not knowing that they would never see them again.

To be honest, you don't have to be a parent and be outraged. You should be outraged no matter what that this keeps happening. They all use the same gun. Literally google the phrase "what gun did the shooter use" and it will be the AR-15. If this is the same gun people keep using over and over again, why has nothing been done? People just throw their hands in the air like it's no big deal.

I just don't get it.

And to be more honest...I'm sick of the "thoughts and prayers" response. I'm sick of the "our nation needs to come together in this time of crisis" response. I'm sick of the "it's too early to talk about guns and gun reform." No. It's not. Because you can't tell me that it's not going to happen again. All I hear when people say that shit is BLAH, BLAH, BLAH. I've heard it all before and I will hear it all again. At some point it falls on deaf ears.

Words at this point mean NOTHING. Absolutely NOTHING to me.

 And let me tell you...people that are pro gun reform don't want to TAKE AWAY ALL YOUR GUNS and if you think that then get out of your own damn head and into someone else's that has been through this shit firsthand. Have a fucking conversation about it and talk. Don't just revert to the 2nd Amendment and it's my right...BLAH, BLAH, BLAH.

And is this the solution to it all? No. This is just one step in a fucked up system that needs to be changed. But we have to start somewhere. We can't just throw our hands up in the air anymore and "pray" about it and "think" about it and continue to make EXCUSES for NOT DOING ANYTHING.

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

What's Up Wednesday {1.31.2018}

What we are eating this week...

Our family has fell in love with Zupas. They have sandwiches, soups and salads. I personally love the Strawberry Harvest Chicken salad.

They opened up a Giordano's right by our house, so of course we had to partake in that awesomeness.

What I'm reminiscing about...

Warmer weather. I know our winter's are different than most people's, but I am craving some heat and pool weather.

What I'm loving...

Our new pots and pans set.

My new Yeti.

My new make-up brush.

And my bracelets from my BFF Katie.

What we've been up to...

We went to the Vegas Golden Knights Fan Fest.

We took Hailey to see Pitch Perfect 3.

And just this past weekend we took Griffin for his first time skating. As you can see from the pictures, he is not a fan.

What I'm dreading...

I feel like the last month our little family has been sick a lot. We are all healthy at the moment (knock on wood), but I just hate when they get sick.

What I'm working on...

I am trying to get organized with pictures and this blog.

What I'm excited about... 

I'm excited for the future for my little family. The D Fam has lots of fun things planned in the next few months, so stay tuned!

What I'm watching/reading...

We've been watching a lot of hockey in our house.

What I'm listening to...

What I'm wearing...

Jeans, blouses, cardigans, flannels and slip on shoes. Leggings of course are always on repeat. I have really been into moto leggings. They are so comfy.

What I'm doing this weekend...

Friday night we are planning on going to a Pancreatic Cancer fundraiser event at a jump park. Saturday morning I am getting my tattoo that I have been wanting. Saturday afternoon we are finally bringing all the crayons and coloring books to the children's hospital and then we have to run some errands before Wayne leaves for Nashville for a country music convention on Sunday morning.

I don't really care about the Superbowl, but I definitely want to watch JT and then This Is Us is a new episode right after the Superbowl, so I have to get caught up on that.

What I'm looking forward to next month...

More Golden Knights games, another Pancreatic Cancer benefit, Valentine's Day

What else is new...

The building I work in is for sale, so we will be moving locations within the next few months. I am so excited to move and get into a new space.

I felt like January went by so fast, but took so long all at the same time.

Thanks for reading friends!

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