Thursday, November 8, 2018

Outsiders

To all my Route 91 family I am with you today and everyday and just know that I love you and am here for you if you need anything.

Outsiders don't understand that when shootings continue to happen over and over again it brings the PTSD back in full force. It brings up feelings and emotions we thought we had dealt with. Outsiders don't realize that just because it's been a year +, that we should be fine and all better and be able to move on. They just don't understand or get it.

We not only cope with what we went through on a daily basis, but on days like this, when another mass shooting happens, and the following days of seeing it on the news over and over again it's hard. Really hard. Physically, mentally and emotionally it's draining. It doesn't matter if it happens in a school or a church/synagogue or a bar. To hear the same things over and over again...thoughts and prayers....

Yes, I am grateful to wake-up everyday, but that doesn't take away the feelings and emotions. Feeling like no one in the real world actually cares. It's becoming a weekly occurrence and everyone is just constantly looking the other way. Which some people can do if they have never been through something like that before, but as survivors we can't look the other way. It consumes us over and over again. It's like a bad movie on repeat that we can't escape.

I am fortunate to have a great support system in my Husband, my kids and my friends. Not everyone has that. So please if you see someone stuggling, try and be that support system for them.