Showing posts with label The D Fam. Show all posts
Showing posts with label The D Fam. Show all posts
Monday, October 1, 2018

#VegasStronger

#VegasStronger
Monday, October 1, 2018
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This week has been hard. Like really hard. Like brain exploding one minute and then heart exploding the next. My eyes are tired from all the tears, but my hurt is full from all the love.

First off, we had to put our little Bella down last Sunday. She was almost 12 and as much as we hated doing it, it was time. She became blind about 4+ years ago and had gone downhill since then. She would only sporadically eat her food for the past few weeks, so we knew the time was getting closer.  Hailey of course was a wreck which made it 10x worse. But nevertheless, we rallied together and got through it as a family.

The vet called me on Friday morning saying that her remains, etc. were ready for pick-up. Wayne and Griff picked up her ashes Sunday morning and Griff was so cute about it. He wanted to hold her on the way home. Needless to say this didn't help with our emotions going into the month of October.


Today is October 1st. If you are new around here, please read HERE and HERE.


It’s been 365 days and there isn't one day that goes by that I don't think about that night and how differently things could have turned out. I wanna say that I'm doing well, but I guess it just depends on the day and time. It depends on where I am or what I'm doing or who I'm with. There are a lot of different factors that determine my mood and/or level of anxiety at any given time and I know that my fellow survivor family can relate.

For me it's not all about October 1st. For me it's more about October 2nd and everyday after. It's about continuing to process what we went through not only that night, but as the sun rose, as the city started moving and as we started healing as a community. It's not just about what we saw, what we heard, what we witnessed. It's about the healing I have done since that day, but also the healing that I have yet to do. It's about my everyday since that day.

It's about my amazing support system in my Husband and children. They are my motivation to keep going and be the best person, Wife and Mother I can be. They are my entire world and I try and show them that everyday. My one thought and fear as I was running for my life that night was that I just hoped that they knew how much I loved them. That's all I want...is for Wayne, Hailey and Griffin to know that I love them with all my heart.

It's about all the amazing people I have met since then. It's about all the amazing friends I now have since that night. It's about the relationships and the connections I have with my people now. That is my silver lining in all of this

It's about my two friends that were with me from Minnesota that weekend. I admit that I not only have #survivorsguilt, but guilt knowing that they wouldn't have been there if it wasn't for coming to visit me in Las Vegas for that weekend and that country music festival. To Samantha and Katie. I am so thankful that we made it out of there alive. I don't want to imagine it any other way. I love you both so much!


For me it's about the VGK organization and the friends that have come out of our #goknightsgo family. They will never truly know how they have helped this community and me and my family especially.

It's about how my city reacted and still reacts. For me it's about all the positive things that have come out of that very dark time and even though it sucks that it happened, I am thankful that I am still here to live everyday with the people I love.

A year ago we were #VegasStrong and now on October 1, 2018 we are #VegasStronger.

Friday, June 8, 2018

VGK: Forever and Always

VGK: Forever and Always
Friday, June 8, 2018
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I’ve been super emotional the last few days and especially today. Not because we didn’t win the Stanley Cup, but what we all have experienced the last 8+ months and woke up to this morning was much more than anything a Stanley Cup could ever give us. The way everyone has opened their hearts to this VGK Family is like no other. Every time I think I am ok, I go online and read what someone wrote, or I watch a video of Fluery apologizing or Tuch crying because he’s so emotional and just can’t keep it in. 

Or I read things like this:


And I lose it all over again.

Let me repeat that I am not emotional because we didn’t win last night. I am happy and at peace and even though I think some Capitals players are dirty, they ultimately played a better game. I am not going to say they were the better team, but they played better than we did. For us, this is so much more than just hockey. This is something bigger than the game itself. 

I am emotional as to what this team has not only given this city and their fans this season, but also my little family. The support and love from everyone has been outstanding. The friendships developed and the messages received whether in person or through social media giving my Husband a compliment or thanking me for sharing him with everyone (haha) or saying how adorable our kids are (aka Gameday Griff) are unbelievable and humbling.  Also, I want to thank you for helping me heal. Thank you for reaching out and chatting or saying Hi at games. Thank you for taking my mind away even for a minute from any dark space. Thank you for the hugs and high fives. Thank you for embracing us. Thank you for being there and being you.


 The D Fam will always be Minnesota WILD fans and hold a special place in our heart for that team because that is where Wayne and I grew up, but Las Vegas is our home now and the Vegas Golden Knights are OUR team. And I’m not talking about just the players, but everyone who had anything to do with the team from the coaches to behind the scenes and especially the fans and our city. 

OUR CITY! 

The way our city embraced this team and rallied together and will continue to rally together for seasons and years to come.

We won a lot more this season than a Stanley Cup that's for sure and for that I
thank you friends from the bottom of my heart.


#vgk #alwaysandforever #vegasstrong #vegasborn
Wednesday, January 31, 2018

What's Up Wednesday {1.31.2018}

What's Up Wednesday {1.31.2018}
Wednesday, January 31, 2018
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What we are eating this week...

Our family has fell in love with Zupas. They have sandwiches, soups and salads. I personally love the Strawberry Harvest Chicken salad.


They opened up a Giordano's right by our house, so of course we had to partake in that awesomeness.



What I'm reminiscing about...

Warmer weather. I know our winter's are different than most people's, but I am craving some heat and pool weather.

What I'm loving...

Our new pots and pans set.


My new Yeti.



My new make-up brush.


And my bracelets from my BFF Katie.



What we've been up to...

We went to the Vegas Golden Knights Fan Fest.




We took Hailey to see Pitch Perfect 3.


And just this past weekend we took Griffin for his first time skating. As you can see from the pictures, he is not a fan.




What I'm dreading...

I feel like the last month our little family has been sick a lot. We are all healthy at the moment (knock on wood), but I just hate when they get sick.

What I'm working on...

I am trying to get organized with pictures and this blog.

What I'm excited about... 

I'm excited for the future for my little family. The D Fam has lots of fun things planned in the next few months, so stay tuned!

What I'm watching/reading...

We've been watching a lot of hockey in our house.

What I'm listening to...







What I'm wearing...

Jeans, blouses, cardigans, flannels and slip on shoes. Leggings of course are always on repeat. I have really been into moto leggings. They are so comfy.

What I'm doing this weekend...

Friday night we are planning on going to a Pancreatic Cancer fundraiser event at a jump park. Saturday morning I am getting my tattoo that I have been wanting. Saturday afternoon we are finally bringing all the crayons and coloring books to the children's hospital and then we have to run some errands before Wayne leaves for Nashville for a country music convention on Sunday morning.

I don't really care about the Superbowl, but I definitely want to watch JT and then This Is Us is a new episode right after the Superbowl, so I have to get caught up on that.

What I'm looking forward to next month...

More Golden Knights games, another Pancreatic Cancer benefit, Valentine's Day

What else is new...

The building I work in is for sale, so we will be moving locations within the next few months. I am so excited to move and get into a new space.

I felt like January went by so fast, but took so long all at the same time.

Thanks for reading friends!

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

2018 Goals

2018 Goals
Wednesday, January 3, 2018
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I am setting some goals for not only myself, but our family as well. These are things I want to work on. I say Goals, but I don't want to beat myself up either if I don't complete these or make these goals every week or month.
FAMILY
Go on a family vacation
Go to MN at least once this year

FITNESS & HEALTH
Work out at least 3 times a week
Make better food/drink choices
Meal prep more foods on the weekends for the week

PERSONAL
Start a daily devotional
Work on my fitness (see above)
Blog 3 times a week

KIDS
Add more veggies to their diets - try more smoothies
Continue to read with Hailey

MISCELLANEOUS
Find a church in Las Vegas
Monday, January 1, 2018

My Word for 2018

My Word for 2018
Monday, January 1, 2018
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I haven't done this in a few years, but one of my goals this year is to get back to blogging more regularly. So I decided what better way to start the year off than to pick a word. There is one word that has been continuously coming back to me and that is ............


This word has had so much meaning to me the last few months and I decided I want to carry that into 2018. STRONG has so many variations and meanings for me now:

Head STRONG

Mentally STRONG

Emotionally STRONG

Physically STRONG

Friendship STRONG

Relationship STRONG

Mom STRONG

Vegas STRONG

All around STRONG.

With everything that has happened the last few months, being mentally and emotionally strong has been a top priority for me.

I know that not everyone that survived 1 October has support like I do. I have an amazing and supportive Husband and two kids that need and depend on me. They were my driving force that night and continue to be my motivation every day.

I have friendships that I cherish very much and want to continue to grow. I have this blog that has always been an outlet for me that I want to continue.

My relationship with my Husband is number 1 and I want to continue to have date nights and take time for just us.

I have really been lacking on working out and taking care of my body. It is something I really need to focus on this year.

With all that being said, I really feel like STRONG is the best word for me this year. It just fits every aspect of my life right now. Let's make 2018 the STRONGest year yet!
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